Sometimes
I wonder
What you
Would
Say to
Me
If your
Tongue
Could not
Bear
A lie;
Would you
Admit
That I was
Just a
Way
For you
To kill
Time until
She finally
Wanted
You?
Would you
Say it
All
Meant nothing
Because I
Was
Never the
One?
Or would
You say that
At one
Time you
Did love
Me but
It’s
Gone now and
It’s never
Coming
Back?
The sad
Thing is
That
Even though
All
Of these
Truths
Would destroy
Me
From
The inside
Out,
They would
Do far
Less damage
Than you
Making
Me wait
On something
You
Know
Will
Never
Happen

these are the last words I’ll dedicate to you
I’ve given up so many pieces of myself, can’t stop offering them up as long as you’re around.
so here it is
the last words I’ll carve into a tombstone marked “my foolish expectations”
can’t keep clinging onto shreds of you that you left me with
can’t keep revisiting your empty words each night as if they were my bible.
so I will bury you under layers of earth along with my naïveté
and shattered hopes,
because under my bed in a box was not far enough to keep me from returning to you.
from pulling on that old sweatshirt
or tshirt
or running my fingers over that stupid $2 bill.
i will lock you away and give the key to someone whose hands don’t shake
until I learn to be steady again
without you.

I’m not the girl your mother warns you about. I won’t kiss your best friend or break your heart. I won’t make you choose between what you love to do & me. I’m not cold. I’m not reckless. I will love you more than anything. I will kiss you when you cry. I will stand by your side until you decide otherwise.

1. When you’re in bed at night and the walls feel like they’re closing in on you, and the bed feels too big without him in it, get up make yourself a cup of tea and put pillows where he used to be. Breathe. You’ll be okay.

2. When you’re at the store or in the park and you see people holding hands and kissing. Do not give in and text him you miss him. It’s okay, you can hold your own hand. You do not need him. Breathe. You’ll be okay.

3. You’ll think you’re over him but then you’ll see him on the street, or he’ll call you and your heart will break all over again. Pick up the pieces and put yourself back together. You’ve been without him this long, you can keep doing it. Breathe. You’ll be okay.

4. The day you find out he’s with someone else will feel like a bullet through the heart, you’ll go numb, you’ll scream, you’ll cry, you’ll feel everything, then feel nothing. It’s okay to shatter. Breathe. You’ll be okay.

5. One day you’ll wake up and think about everything but him and you won’t even realize it. One day you’ll be okay without him. So until then. Breathe. You’ll be okay.

– Five things to remember when he breaks your heart. (via jessielou24)